Lily is my first baby and my first pregnancy. One of the reasons I didn't want to have children is because having a watermelon come out of vagina never seemed like my cup of tea. Then, I found myself pregnant and there was truly no other way for her to come out. I still hope … Continue reading My Labor Story Part 1
Being pregnant is no easy feat. My anxiety and depression were a hurdle that I had to overcome faster than I knew I could. It's hard to look at, acknowledge and learn to use silver linings when you've been pessimistic most of your life- even if you do it as a joke. But it's not impossible! Read about how I've been staying positive throughout my pregnancy, maybe a thing or two will help.
Yesterday marked my 14th week of pregnancy, and I am finally over my first trimester! My first trimester was ass. From week 5, when I didn't know I was pregnant I was starting to feel odd. I ordered a bowl at Taco Bell that I should have liked, but I couldn't stomach. I also started … Continue reading What my first trimester was like!
I have ALWAYS said that I never wanted children. I never wanted to be a mom. I never wanted to be pregnant. I never wanted to give birth. I never wanted to have to adjust my life for another being. I have always thought that children were not for me and if I ever did … Continue reading Why I decided to stay pregnant despite never wanting children…
Before looking at the test I washed my hands in the sink next to the toilet. I didn't even make a slight glance towards the pregnancy test. Part of me was hoping that this was a sick joke or a nightmare. I was so scared and nervous I didn't want to look. I took the … Continue reading When You’re not Expecting Pt. 2