This is a continuation from "Chew me up and spit me out", check it out before reading further so you'll know what's going on! 🙂 Eric. Eric. Eric. We will keep that fake name to talk about the guy who treated me and I allowed to treat me like crap. I like to make it…
Tag: thoughts
Salt & Pepper
As I see my dads hair go from dark black to sprinkles of grey in his beard and head, I can't help but get teary eyed because my Daddy is growing up. I see my friends have older parents who are doing just fine at their old age, but this is my Daddy we are…
Puppeteered Thoughts
It took a phone call with my childhood best friend to realize that I have normal thoughts. In that phone call I also realized how much progress I've actually made since trying to out myself. Not only in my day to day life routine, but I am much more able to handle my thoughts.…
Untrustworthy
Untrustworthy. I can't decide whether my mind is untrustworthy or if he is. I don't know if this is an issue with other people who are depressed or have anxiety, but sometimes I think I'm going crazy. I know when I have thoughts such as methods of killing myself or constant self put-downs that they're…
Failed Suicide
I like to be an open book when it comes to this topic because a lot of people aren't. The few that do, have helped me in some sort of way and I'd like for people who are going through what I am, to not feel so alone... like me. I stopped writing here because…
August 15th: The Color Baby Blue
On August 15th I also took the three following positives (I think this is what my goal is going to be, 3 positives everyday). Made dinner, baked potatoes with mac and cheese, corn on the cob and frijoles charros. My sister had dinner with me. I didn't wake up sad. Tuesday was a pretty busy…
Nikolás
I met this guy, lets call him Red. Red was a 20 something year old single guy, I was a 17 year old single girl who was freshly heartbroken looking for love in all the wrong places. Red was very toxic for me, but I kept him there because I was convinced he was going…
